Well, lets just say that it was an other disappointing month.Af showed up again. I so badly dint want to see her. For the main reason that my RE had told me that she wanted to do an Hysteroscopy to see how everything looks after my C section. I just dint want that. Off lately I have noticed that my AF is not what it used to be. Its more watery. I have no clue why. I just hope everything is fine inside. Its scary though. No matter how much I tell myself to be brave, its hard.Its very hard.
But I need to keep moving. This will be the worst year of my life. Or is it just the beginning? See these are the things that scare me to death. They say life is all about hope. You hope to live long, you hope you have happy days ahead, you hope one day everything will be fine, you hope the other side of the grass is green....but does it always work? Arent there people who suffer life long.Does hoping make it any better.I dont know, for now, I would like to take it one day at a time. I just want to get the hysteroscopy done and know that everything is fine.
HOPE HOPE HOPE.
Will see what next monday has in store for me.
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