Well, lets just say that it was an other disappointing month.Af showed up again. I so badly dint want to see her. For the main reason that my RE had told me that she wanted to do an Hysteroscopy to see how everything looks after my C section. I just dint want that. Off lately I have noticed that my AF is not what it used to be. Its more watery. I have no clue why. I just hope everything is fine inside. Its scary though. No matter how much I tell myself to be brave, its hard.Its very hard.
But I need to keep moving. This will be the worst year of my life. Or is it just the beginning? See these are the things that scare me to death. They say life is all about hope. You hope to live long, you hope you have happy days ahead, you hope one day everything will be fine, you hope the other side of the grass is green....but does it always work? Arent there people who suffer life long.Does hoping make it any better.I dont know, for now, I would like to take it one day at a time. I just want to get the hysteroscopy done and know that everything is fine.
HOPE HOPE HOPE.
Will see what next monday has in store for me.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
A good weekend
It was Sunday, Oct 11th 2009. It was quite hot when we (Myself, my dear hubby , Jeff my Co-worker and his Wife Ann marie) went to watch Andre Agassi play in Surprise AZ. Yep, You heard it right, ANDRE AGASSI was here. It was all the oldie goldie players and the event was organised by the Cancer Treatment for Centers of America(CTCA). Looks like the Prize money for the champion was about $150,000. Agassi lost the championship to Todd Martin. Agassi was not sure how much the prize money was but he donated everything to CTCA. A very generous act.
My Husband is a huge fan of Agassi and we both love Tennis.Its our dream to be a part of all the 4 Tennis grand slam finals. I am sure we will do it some day.But for now, our priorities are totally different.
For some reason I have been quite happy and very postive for the past couple of days.WHY? I dont know....I had a blood work last week and the results came out to be perfectly normal. I was very worried about the whole thing. Anyways, Its a good start and I want to keep going. I am a strong beleiver of mind. Mind is a very powerful thing. Its as powerful as you want it to be.
Its almost been 3 months that a tragedy struck our lives. Its true that life moves on and with time all moments, happy or sad, fades away. Isnt it? I still remember when I joined my Engineering college, I was very happy but I dont feel it anymore. Its faded. The day I got married to Deepak. I was very happy and I still am, but that particular day of all the excitement and fun and happiness, its all faded with time. As we make new memories, the old ones take a back seat I guess. But, thats still fine, for better or worse I am so glad my hubby is with me. Just makes me feel that I can face anything with him by my side.
One thing that I have learnt from the horrific experience I had is to appreciate the things I have. My friends, My husband, health, enough money to make ends meet. I still have a long list of things I really need,and I am sure to have them in future, or atleast I hope so.
Looks like I am going off the topic,but for a moment, I was thinking about the cancer patients of CTCA. Death is a fact, infact, thats the only thing which is certain in life and we still lead our lives as if it's gonna pass us and we will be OKAY,but,we all know for sure it will strike us all one day.
My Husband is a huge fan of Agassi and we both love Tennis.Its our dream to be a part of all the 4 Tennis grand slam finals. I am sure we will do it some day.But for now, our priorities are totally different.
For some reason I have been quite happy and very postive for the past couple of days.WHY? I dont know....I had a blood work last week and the results came out to be perfectly normal. I was very worried about the whole thing. Anyways, Its a good start and I want to keep going. I am a strong beleiver of mind. Mind is a very powerful thing. Its as powerful as you want it to be.
Its almost been 3 months that a tragedy struck our lives. Its true that life moves on and with time all moments, happy or sad, fades away. Isnt it? I still remember when I joined my Engineering college, I was very happy but I dont feel it anymore. Its faded. The day I got married to Deepak. I was very happy and I still am, but that particular day of all the excitement and fun and happiness, its all faded with time. As we make new memories, the old ones take a back seat I guess. But, thats still fine, for better or worse I am so glad my hubby is with me. Just makes me feel that I can face anything with him by my side.
One thing that I have learnt from the horrific experience I had is to appreciate the things I have. My friends, My husband, health, enough money to make ends meet. I still have a long list of things I really need,and I am sure to have them in future, or atleast I hope so.
Looks like I am going off the topic,but for a moment, I was thinking about the cancer patients of CTCA. Death is a fact, infact, thats the only thing which is certain in life and we still lead our lives as if it's gonna pass us and we will be OKAY,but,we all know for sure it will strike us all one day.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Haagala kaaye Hulsoppu
I love to cook and I my husband thinks I do a good job at it .
Well I would like to introduce you to this south Indian Dish (Curry) called Hulsoppu. You can make Hulsoppu with different kinds of vegetables like, Sweet pumpkin Hulsoppu (See kumbalkaaye hulsoppu), Soppu (Spinach), Okra etc..
I know most people dont like bitter Gourd but whoever likes this vegetable will like it a lot. Worth giving it a try.
Ingredients:
1) 8-10 spoons of oil
2) 1/2 spoon mustard seeds
3)2 spoons of urad dhal
4) 1 spoon of Menthya (Fenugreek seeds)
5) 8-10 green chilles
6) 3-4 red chillies
7) a cup of Cilantro
8) 3-5 spoons of rice flour
9) 1-1 1/2 cups of toor dhal
10) 3 haagalakaayi
11) 1/2 spoon of Hing
12) 1/2 cup Tamarind Extraxt (Liquid)
How to make Hagalakayi Hulsoppu:
1) Cook Toor dhal in a pressure cooker.
2) Cut the Hagalakayi into small pieces.
3) Add 8-10 spoons of oil in a pan and add mustard seeds. After it splutters add 2 spoons of urad dhal and 1 spoon of fenugreek seeds. After it turns red add the green chillies,the red chillies and hing.
4) Immediately add the finely cut Bitter gourd (Haagala kaaye) to the pan and fry it for about 15-20 mins. Make sure that the Bitter gourd turns deep brown.
5) After the bitter gourd is cooked add the cooked toor dhal into the pan and add 2 -3 cups of water.
6) Now also add about 1/2 cup of Tamarind extract and salt to taste.
7) Now Mix 3-4 spoons of rice flour in 6-8 spoons of water and add this to the pan in which everything is boiling.
8) Add cilantro and allow the curry to boil for a few more mins
Hot Hagalakayi hulsoppu is ready to be served. Should be eaten with Rice. Just like Sambhaar or Rasam....
Well I would like to introduce you to this south Indian Dish (Curry) called Hulsoppu. You can make Hulsoppu with different kinds of vegetables like, Sweet pumpkin Hulsoppu (See kumbalkaaye hulsoppu), Soppu (Spinach), Okra etc..
I know most people dont like bitter Gourd but whoever likes this vegetable will like it a lot. Worth giving it a try.
Ingredients:
1) 8-10 spoons of oil
2) 1/2 spoon mustard seeds
3)2 spoons of urad dhal
4) 1 spoon of Menthya (Fenugreek seeds)
5) 8-10 green chilles
6) 3-4 red chillies
7) a cup of Cilantro
8) 3-5 spoons of rice flour
9) 1-1 1/2 cups of toor dhal
10) 3 haagalakaayi
11) 1/2 spoon of Hing
12) 1/2 cup Tamarind Extraxt (Liquid)
How to make Hagalakayi Hulsoppu:
1) Cook Toor dhal in a pressure cooker.
2) Cut the Hagalakayi into small pieces.
3) Add 8-10 spoons of oil in a pan and add mustard seeds. After it splutters add 2 spoons of urad dhal and 1 spoon of fenugreek seeds. After it turns red add the green chillies,the red chillies and hing.
4) Immediately add the finely cut Bitter gourd (Haagala kaaye) to the pan and fry it for about 15-20 mins. Make sure that the Bitter gourd turns deep brown.
5) After the bitter gourd is cooked add the cooked toor dhal into the pan and add 2 -3 cups of water.
6) Now also add about 1/2 cup of Tamarind extract and salt to taste.
7) Now Mix 3-4 spoons of rice flour in 6-8 spoons of water and add this to the pan in which everything is boiling.
8) Add cilantro and allow the curry to boil for a few more mins
Hot Hagalakayi hulsoppu is ready to be served. Should be eaten with Rice. Just like Sambhaar or Rasam....
Hi..We are the NAGS
Well.........I still don't know why I decided to blog. Would anybody be interested in knowing whats going on in my life, where I was this weekend, what will I be doing the next weekend, Did I get a promotion, what's my fav dish, who are my best friends?
May be ....may be not. But I don't think that these are any of the reasons why I want to do this.
Sometimes in life, a few things happen that you never expect, that you want to forget and move on but you just cant let it go.
OK lets not go there....Will just say I have had the worst experience and may be I don't want to let it go, may be I need answers, may be I need a place to vent and I think this is the right place to do so ORRRRR May be I want to look back someday and read about all the good things that happened to me, Cos u know, I think I am pretty bad at counting my blessings. Whatever may be the reason I started blogging, hope Life has something nice to offer in future and a smile can stay when I read this blog after 20 years.
Anyways, I am Chaya Nag and My dear hubby is Deepak Nag and no, we are not related to Ananth Nag and Shankar Nag.
Good for now. More later......
May be ....may be not. But I don't think that these are any of the reasons why I want to do this.
Sometimes in life, a few things happen that you never expect, that you want to forget and move on but you just cant let it go.
OK lets not go there....Will just say I have had the worst experience and may be I don't want to let it go, may be I need answers, may be I need a place to vent and I think this is the right place to do so ORRRRR May be I want to look back someday and read about all the good things that happened to me, Cos u know, I think I am pretty bad at counting my blessings. Whatever may be the reason I started blogging, hope Life has something nice to offer in future and a smile can stay when I read this blog after 20 years.
Anyways, I am Chaya Nag and My dear hubby is Deepak Nag and no, we are not related to Ananth Nag and Shankar Nag.
Good for now. More later......
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